Sunday, October 4, 2009

The Bag Gets Unpacked

I've been hem and hawwing about shit canning this blog... but I've decided to keep it going and suck up how I left it ... about leaving it hanging. I think I'll get over it considering ... My Dad is gone...
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I left off with a packed bag heading south... That same bag's done alot of traveling back and forth these past months. Despite reading blogs, I couldn't write one.
I thought that too many of my feelings on display would invite what I didn't really want to hear.... To commiserate my fathers death ..... those who said "they'd been there ? ... No... My dad's dying was mine to keep.....I didn't want to share it ....... I felt any "blogging" to be superficial and inconsequincial to what was happening in my life... I withdrew ...for a loooong time.... September 10th, Dad finally let go ...I don't think I'll ever be able to put his death or my loss to words..... He's my Dad... and always will be...

I'm finding my way back...... home has been hard to reconcile...

but it's all coming back ...


PS... Thanks Sue M for kindly let me know that my comments setting was turned off... I fixed it.

8 comments:

Judy S. said...

So glad you're back, Jane, after such a difficult time. I've thought of you often these past months. Take care, and may your memories help you heal. Big hugs.

Diana Napier said...

Somethings are just too hard to share. I hope things will become easier for you in the coming months and that you will enjoy many lovely moments you can share.

gocrazywithme said...

Hi Jane,
I was excited yesterday to see your blog post, and today I see you commented on my blog. Glad to have you back in the cyber world! Are you doing any CQing?

sparkle jars said...

I'm so glad you are back.

Threadspider said...

Hey there Jane and so lovely to have you back. And thanks for popping over for a quick visit to England already : )

Momma Bear said...

it's lovely to have you back Jane!
thank you for your comments.
life never gives us more than we can handle even though it sometimes feels like it!
my grand ma used to say god never slams a door without opening a window, just don't let your butt get stuck on the way!)
It's good to see you quilting again.

Toni said...

Glad to hear from you...we missed you...Toni

SassyCatHill said...

I'm poking around your blog today and enjoying your posts. This one I'd seen already but it hits closer to home today. Not that my loss compares to losing a DAD, but the feelings are the same.
Thanks for your prayers.